At 17 I left home and spread my wings. I have been so blessed as I follow where this crazy life has led me. As I come close to deciding where this girl is gonna settle down, where? is a question I am asked most often. Every place I have been now has a little piece of my heart. Some more than others. So if home really is where the heart is...then we have a problem. Vegas, Oregon, Cali, Lincoln, Dallas, and Amarillo are not exactly close to each other. My prayer is that it will become clear to me in this next year where these roots need to be planted and I also pray that wherever that may be, that just maybe it will be in a place that already has a little bit of my heart or that God will make me perfectly content if it is somewhere new.

Growing up? No thanks.

Growing up scares me. I know that I am still young but I cant help but think that I will never be a kid again. Thinking back to high school, I would do anything to just have one week of those days back. Im sure once I leave college I will wish I could have a week of this time back. Today is just one of those days where I miss home a ton and wish I could live with all my brothers again and play soccer for my high school and go to classes and mess around with my friends.

I still have about a year and a half left of college so I am not sure why I am having a high speed come apart about this. Maybe its because I am going on my internship in a few weeks. I am so excited and lucky to be going but I am sad to leave everything behind and start new again. I know I am not leaving things here for good because I will be back in the winter, but it is still hard. There is so much unknown and it is not really that fun to think that I while I am stressing about all these things, time is steadily moving forward. Not only am I worried about the future but I am wasting the time I have now by worrying about the future.

I just need to give it to God. I need to remember that not even my next breath is guaranteed to me unless God says so. No sense in worrying about something that is not even mine in the first place. Easier said than done though.

texas

Welp, it is true, everything is bigger and better in Texas. And I am lucky enough to get to do my official school internship there! YE-YUH! The last summer I spent in Texas was seriously the best summer of my life. I will never forget the friendships made and things learned in that summer. When I left, I didnt know if I would ever get the opportunity to go back to that beautiful state. And this is my public statement committing to Hillside Christian Church in Amarillo TX.

I am super nervous and a little bit freaked to be going on my official internship. Mainly because that means I am getting old and I will actually have to go out into this big bad world and do something with myself. Also because commitments stress me out a little bit. The future is a scary thing for me. Now, I still have a year and a half left of school. But I cant help but feel the pressure of the looming question, "so what are you going to do once you graduate?" Heck if I know. I know that I love jr high ministry and that I love being around people and I love creative arts. We will see where that takes me. But for right now, I am seriously the luckiest girl in the world to be going to a school with awesome friends and about to have an awesome adventure in Texas...again.

God is faithful and I know that the next few years are going to be so awesome.
Psalm 121
^"1 I lift up my eyes to the mountains— where does my help come from? ² My help comes from the LORD, the Maker of heaven and earth.³ He will not let your foot slip— he who watches over you will not slumber; ⁴ indeed, he who watches over Israel will neither slumber nor sleep.⁵ The LORD watches over you— the LORD is your shade at your right hand; ⁶ the sun will not harm you by day, nor the moon by night.⁷ The LORD will keep you from all harm— he will watch over your life; ⁸ the LORD will watch over your coming and going both now and forevermore.