Does it hurt?
Yes
The rain came and the storms of this life hit me hard
The rain went away after a while but the night brought hail
No rainbow, just dark lonely hail
The morning brought snow
Somehow through the blankets of glistening snow I find hope
Hope that it will melt
Knowing that under the snow is life and life abundantly
Will I hurt tomorrow?
Yes
I have become something that not even I can love
The mirror reflects the ugly unhappy morose version of a girl
A girl who loved sports and life and having a good time
I will not settle until I find that girl
You ask if I will live?
Yes.
I will believe in myself and all that I am
Knowing that there is something inside me that is greater than any obstacle.
I will not stop loving him
And I pray that one day he will give that love another chance.
Until then...
i WILL find myself
artists to watch out for
Sunday, March 29, 2009
Sunday, March 22, 2009
Friday, March 20, 2009
just breathe
inhale...
my mind suffocating from the thoughts it must house. too much to hold, but too much to let go. Your words linger, the cold wind against my face. Just as sharp and painful with each blow.
exhale...
His peace consumes. Uncertain yet sure, His sovereignty maintains me. hands raised in awe. reaching, but not alone. embraced in the spirit.
inhale...
so much resting upon me. a task beyond my capability. Forever...depending on my words. The waves are coming in, my feet start to slip
exhale...
The bank holds firm. He will never let go. I cannot see accross the span, but the shoreline up ahead will not disappoint. My gaze now focused, i look only ahead
my mind suffocating from the thoughts it must house. too much to hold, but too much to let go. Your words linger, the cold wind against my face. Just as sharp and painful with each blow.
exhale...
His peace consumes. Uncertain yet sure, His sovereignty maintains me. hands raised in awe. reaching, but not alone. embraced in the spirit.
inhale...
so much resting upon me. a task beyond my capability. Forever...depending on my words. The waves are coming in, my feet start to slip
exhale...
The bank holds firm. He will never let go. I cannot see accross the span, but the shoreline up ahead will not disappoint. My gaze now focused, i look only ahead
Wednesday, March 18, 2009
I Grew Up In Vegas...
Now that I have left and gone away to school, I can really see how different growing up in Vegas is from the rest of the country.
When you grew up in Vegas:
You don't wear "Las Vegas", T-shirts. Only people from Cali would do that.
When you go to different cities, you're amazed things aren't open after 9 pm
When it rains people freak out & when it snows, they lose their minds.
In the summer, your car is overheated...before you started driving
You know that prostitution is illegal in Las Vegas but legal in Pahrump.
You know a yellow light means there is plenty of time and a red light means there is still enough time.
Your mayor used to work for the mob and still hangs out with show girls.
The slot machines in the airport drown out the PA announcements
You give directions to your house based on location of closest casino
You learned how to use crayon's by playing KENO at restaurants when you were a kid.
You have no idea what a scarf does but think it looks good.
You know how to get to any casino on the strip without taking Las Vegas Blvd.
You know the seasons: Really hot, 2 weeks of nice, not so hot, 2 weeks of nice.
It doesn't faze you to see slot machines in grocery stores.
You have no idea how a lottery works.
You know the spaghetti bowl has nothing to do with food and you want nothing to do with it.
You think a well-organized pile of rocks can be a nice lawn.
You need to walk through a casino to see a movie.
You can spot a tourist from 3 miles away.
Limos are an everyday sighting.
You don't own an umbrella.
Sixty degrees is cold enough to wear a jacket.
You can wear shorts in the winter.
You get bored in the Entertainment Capital of the World.
You've never had to pay for parking.
When you grew up in Vegas:
You don't wear "Las Vegas", T-shirts. Only people from Cali would do that.
When you go to different cities, you're amazed things aren't open after 9 pm
When it rains people freak out & when it snows, they lose their minds.
In the summer, your car is overheated...before you started driving
You know that prostitution is illegal in Las Vegas but legal in Pahrump.
You know a yellow light means there is plenty of time and a red light means there is still enough time.
Your mayor used to work for the mob and still hangs out with show girls.
The slot machines in the airport drown out the PA announcements
You give directions to your house based on location of closest casino
You learned how to use crayon's by playing KENO at restaurants when you were a kid.
You have no idea what a scarf does but think it looks good.
You know how to get to any casino on the strip without taking Las Vegas Blvd.
You know the seasons: Really hot, 2 weeks of nice, not so hot, 2 weeks of nice.
It doesn't faze you to see slot machines in grocery stores.
You have no idea how a lottery works.
You know the spaghetti bowl has nothing to do with food and you want nothing to do with it.
You think a well-organized pile of rocks can be a nice lawn.
You need to walk through a casino to see a movie.
You can spot a tourist from 3 miles away.
Limos are an everyday sighting.
You don't own an umbrella.
Sixty degrees is cold enough to wear a jacket.
You can wear shorts in the winter.
You get bored in the Entertainment Capital of the World.
You've never had to pay for parking.
Monday, March 16, 2009
The Luckiest
In fact, I am told that a lot
Now I know all the wrong turns, the stumbles and falls
Brought me here
And where was I before the day
That I first saw your lovely face?
Now I see it everyday
And I know
That I am
The luckiest
-Ben Folds
Now I know all the wrong turns, the stumbles and falls
Brought me here
And where was I before the day
That I first saw your lovely face?
Now I see it everyday
And I know
That I am
The luckiest
-Ben Folds
I know that I complain a lot about the way things are, but I really am thankful for a lot of things. Today I sat down and started listing off the things that I have to be thankful for and I really am a pretty lucky person. In spite of all the bad things that happen in my life, I have so much going for me.
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